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Reaching out for answers

I'm starting this blog on a rainy night. A night of confusion, and stress for my future. I want nothing more in life than to live, and write, and be successful; But success isn't something that comes easy. I mean, I make everything up as I go because I'm lost. No one prepares you for the transition from the regular schedule, to being an adult that has things to worry about. I find myself constantly believing that I'm somehow behind in life; that I missed out on a very important class that gives me step-by-step instructions on how to live. I need to keep reminding myself that that class doesn't exist, because the truth of it is, no one knows what we're supposed to be doing. Even the people we look up to, the people that are praised for being perfectly put together, they are just like us. The ones' that don't and probably never will understand what our purpose is.

This blog is supposed to be my entry into my journalism career, but I won't know of it's success until that success exists; if it ever

does. I can remain hopeful, in fact that's all any of us can do. We all continue to hope for the best things, because the alternative is that nothing in life is worth it; that we woke up on this planet one day, and were told that we must work until we die. Where does living start? Does it begin at birth, or the realization that moving through our day-to-day routine isn't living at all? The realization of impending doom comes now, as a new college student working dead end jobs that won't take me anywhere near my goals. But now is also the time that I stop looking at that doom as something that I need to chase. Now is the time to start living for me.

I hope to take my readers with me on my journey, because everyone has these thoughts, and if they tell you they don't, they are lying. We all woke up one random day as a kid, and realized that things don't feel right. We can't be sure what it is that's off, sometimes we can't even ask for clarification because we feel like we'll be judged. This is the platform that will remain for the grown kids who were terrified of falling behind; for the kids that need the same answers as me. Lets find them together.